In 54 days, more or less, I'll give birth again to another baby girl. I feel excited and nervous at the same time. Something that I didn't feel when I was about to give birth to baby Gwen.

I feel different. I think I am more afraid this time despite my past experience. I think it is because I know what to expect by the time that I am admitted to the hospital. I think this is because I wanted to have the same 'easy' delivery as I had before. I think because I know that there are more people waiting for me to go out of the delivery room.

On the other hand, I pray that I will be stronger this time. Since I already know how to 'push', delivery would be a lot easier. I pray that baby Stef would also be strong and be out as soon as she can. That she will be stronger and will find her way out faster. I just pray that both of us will be safe because when we get out of the delivery room, tatay and ate gwen-gwen will be there waiting for us.